Confession Time

This is Katie.
OK....so I'll be totally honest here. I'm totally not currently training for the half marathon. BUT...I'm totally fine with that. And this is why...

It's been kind of a rough transition back to work post-Will. I'm not the weeping mom at work or anything, but I am the guilt-ridden one...and sometimes even the jealous one. Anyway, I won't go into that except to say that it's really really hard.

A little background....I used to work in my classroom every night until at least 6, more often until 8 or 9. Sometimes I'd get going on a project and stay until midnight or so. It's just my thing....I get going on something and want it done. RJ calls it overcomplicating things, and he's totally right. But that's what I do.

So...fast forward to Will coming. I was definitely NOT going to be THAT mom working 70-80 hours a week while I miss my child. So, I am now home by 4:30 everyday....which is HUGE for me. (Isn't it sad that that is still an hour and half after my contract time?!) But...I have had the hardest time balancing the two. It just seems that I'm failing one or the other all the time. Either I put in extra effort and time in my classroom, but feel like I am not being what RJ and Will need....or I devote everything to home and my classroom, instruction, and 24 kids are left needing more. Where do I draw the line?! I still haven't found that....

BUT....this leads me to the point that I have been trying to find a balance and limit my ever growing complex about being a working mom...which is bound to get tons worse next year when RJ won't be able to stay home. Trying to stay on top of said guilt now and in the future by spending every post-4:30 moment with Will until bed. And when he crashes, so do I. Or I then tackle the massive school bag I brought home.

Ok now this may sound like a big fat mound of excuses. And maybe it is. But for me, I'm TOTALLY happy with this right now. I feel like I'm healthier than ever, have worked hard to lose baby weight (and a few extra even, yay!), and have a general content feeling.

I've made some great life changes....healthier eating, more water, working out....

BUT...I would not feel ok with myself if I opted out of the half-marathon now. I clearly haven't tried my best yet. SO...I will continue to finish the school year trying my best to be my best at teaching, being a wife, being a mom, having a somewhat clean house, eating healthy, cooking healthy, and working out.

BUT...when summer comes and 75% or more of my stress is g-o-n-e....THAT'S when the true test will be. If that leaves me time to train, great. If it doesn't, then I will still do the very best I can. No matter what happens though, by that point I'll know I really , truly did my very best....and am still a wife, mother, and teacher too.

*If I don't train this summer, you all have full permission to call me the biggest wimp you've ever met... but for now, know that I'm working on other areas of my life that to me are more important right now.....only 31 more days of school.....

I'm back!

So somehow I managed to still lose 5 more pounds during tax season which was surprising since I sat in an office chair for 12-14 hours a day. Now that it's over, IT'S ON!! For all of you who haven't been blogging or signed up for the race - I now have the time to relentlessly harrass you till you do. :-)

Everyone better be ready for healthy food and workouts this weekend when I come down.

~Amy

The Biggest Loser

Kami, I know I have not posted forvever. No one has. But you know I have been working out! You saw me:) But I have also been trying some new recipes lately! A bunch of them came from the Biggest Loser book. Some of the things I have tried:

Black Bean Quesadillas
Mexican Turkey Burger
Tropical Smoothie
Lemon Cake
Pudding Pops

There are lots more that I can't wait to try! What has everyone else been eating? Anything you want to share? Let me know if you want the recipe for any of these:)

It is just melting off :-)

Down 20 lbs now....yahoo!!!! I have thrown up twice and it is horrible....never want to eat chocolate again from it.....and I cannot eat peas (that is weird). And what is going on with everyone else??? Why is there no posts about motivation, losing weight, running the 1/2 marathon, eating good???? I am still going to try to run the 1/2 marathon!

Everything is going good!

Update on surgery - I am doing fabulous. I have not had heartburn since surgery and have not had to take any heartburn medication. It is the best thing ever. Also I feel better as a whole....I think my gall bladder was a ticking time bomb in me. Anyway when I get back to Rock Springs which will be probably Thursday because of the biggest snow storm ever (because I am here) I am going to start going back to the gym and walking on the track because doctors orders are that I walk at least a mile a day for the first month and then work out normal after that. It has only been 5 days and I have lost 10 pounds. Wait till you all see me in three weeks....I can't wait to see your faces!!!!